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For several years now, I have lived my life with the idea that having good days or having bad days was within my control.
I have tried (with varying degrees of success) to choose to be happy and positive. It’s not always easy. Actually, it’s really difficult most of the time, and I often fail.
Nonetheless, I keep trying. (Now that I think about it, my entire pregnancy was, more or less, a hiatus from this plan but I’m back on the wagon now.)
All day today, I’ve been thinking about how sad I was to leave Grace this morning and about the comments that Melissa left regarding my earlier post.
I’ve come to a realization.
I need to get over this guilt and anguish. If I allow myself to be sad every morning, then I’m going to be sad every morning for the next five years. That is not healthy for me or for Grace.
Starting tomorrow morning, I’m going to be grateful for the great job I have, and the time I have with Grace in the morning and the evening.
I’ll let you know how it goes.
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Hi Tara, I found your blog! I tend to agree on the “choose your own reaction” philosophy. Not that it’s easy. Good luck with it, and maybe you’ll inspire me to do the same. I do keep telling myself that one thing I’ve discovered through this motherhood thing is that I must really like my job, if I like it despite the fact that I’m away from home. I’d very much rather be home with LO, but I enjoy my students too.
You blogging people have inspired me to start my own also, but I haven’t done much with it. Still haven’t figured out the audience. I want to put links there for family, but then…
Hi Tara, I found your blog! I tend to agree on the “choose your own reaction” philosophy. Not that it’s easy. Good luck with it, and maybe you’ll inspire me to do the same. I do keep telling myself that one thing I’ve discovered through this motherhood thing is that I must really like my job, if I like it despite the fact that I’m away from home. I’d very much rather be home with LO, but I enjoy my students too. You blogging people have inspired me to start my own also, but I haven’t done much with it. Still haven’t figured out the audience. I want to put links there for family, but then…
but then, you also want to use it to complain about them!
I feel ya on that, Carol! In fact, that’s going to be really tricky for me since this is such a public forum. For instance, what do I want my boss to know about me? My grandparents? My neighbors? Since it’s out there for all of them to potentially read.
but then, you also want to use it to complain about them!
I feel ya on that, Carol! In fact, that’s going to be really tricky for me since this is such a public forum. For instance, what do I want my boss to know about me? My grandparents? My neighbors? Since it’s out there for all of them to potentially read.
Tara, I had to go back anr re-read my comment, and I saw your response. I did mean well, i think deep inside we all know what is for our own situation, and as I said, I don’t judge anyone who stays home or works, no matter their reason- even if it isn’t because they have to get by. However, for my own situation, where I do not have to work, we could get by (it will be tight), and live at our means instead of above them. Right now our (my DH & I) reason would be to still be able to have the fun stuff. I completely understand, it is not smart to not have benefits!! It sounds like you know what is best for your family, and being able to do that (especially with a job you like) is awesome!!
Oh, and you guys cracked me up about the blog/family etc. It is hard to watch myself sometimes… oh, and also, I have given out my blog address on the BBC boards, and then come to find out someone asks me where I work… and they work at the same company. So do becareful, cause yes it is possible that your boss or anyone else can read these.
Hope you had a good weekend!!
Tara, I had to go back anr re-read my comment, and I saw your response. I did mean well, i think deep inside we all know what is for our own situation, and as I said, I don’t judge anyone who stays home or works, no matter their reason- even if it isn’t because they have to get by. However, for my own situation, where I do not have to work, we could get by (it will be tight), and live at our means instead of above them. Right now our (my DH & I) reason would be to still be able to have the fun stuff. I completely understand, it is not smart to not have benefits!! It sounds like you know what is best for your family, and being able to do that (especially with a job you like) is awesome!!Oh, and you guys cracked me up about the blog/family etc. It is hard to watch myself sometimes… oh, and also, I have given out my blog address on the BBC boards, and then come to find out someone asks me where I work… and they work at the same company. So do becareful, cause yes it is possible that your boss or anyone else can read these.
Hope you had a good weekend!!
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